I bought her yesterday. Such an investment called for a celebratory post because this is my first car that’s actually nice. Pre-Elora was the first car I ever bought, which was a ‘92 Chevy S-10 Blazer…maroon in color. Not at ALL my style. But it was what I could afford at the time.
So, needless to say I’m super stoked to introduce my sexy red 2003 Dodge Neon. I heart her so, and I’m so proud of myself to have bought her all by myself! Paid full in cash, all made by my own design work.
So I must give a big shout out thanks to all my super awesome clients for hiring me and helping to get me and my daughter a new dependable (and good lookin’) car. YAY!
I saw you for who you really were inside.
I saw your love.
I saw your light.
I saw, how through the worst of storms – that light still shined.
I saw, through the ugliest of labels – your heart of gold.
I saw your message.
I understood your message.
I understood you.
I saw your beauty.
I saw your compassion.
I saw through the lies.
I saw your innocence.
I saw your pain.
I saw your strength.
I saw what so many missed. I saw the truth.
I hope that wherever you are now, you know that there were and are people who really saw you.
I had so much fun with my last photo manipulation, I couldn’t help but make another.
I’ll call her my Avatar’s alter-ego; the part of me that lies deep inside. The part that is fierce and has no fear. I’d like to be like her more often.
I went to see Avatar today with my Dad. It was my first time seeing the movie…and I was AMAZED. Amazed by the incredibly detailed CGI work, the breathtaking views of the planet Pandora, the beauty of the Na’vi species, and the creativity behind the creatures and the plants. I was DRAWN IN by the love story, not just between woman and man but between Na’vis and nature. Between Na’vis and all creatures. The spiritual and compassionate aspect, of being so connected with all around you and truly seeing the worth of all life and respecting that, was something to be inspired by. Avatar is THE BEST movie I have ever seen.
Of course I’m a sucker for fantasy movies. Anything that takes me into another world and feels magical. But Avatar was the first to really capture my attention like it did…to really pull me into their world to the point that I almost forgot that I was on Earth. I didn’t want that movie to end. It was a rather sad experience leaving the theater…lol. What I would give to live in their reality!
I went to the grocery store hours after watching it…and it was an interesting experience. I was standing in the checkout line just watching people. It was one of those moments when you feel completely disconnected from the human condition or ‘bubble’ that we all live in. I was just realizing the way we live… with all these buildings and streets everywhere…so disconnected with nature and with ourselves even. Looking at all the fluorescent lights, machines, and hundreds of people just going through life like zombies…focusing on materialistic crap, and all these other things that just don’t matter and are really just distractions for what really does….I just stopped and thought wow, what a mess. What is my part in this mess? I feel so out of place. Lol. I mean, I’ve been guilty myself of getting caught up in the mess…but how can you not? It’s almost impossible for it all to not just kick you off your ass. So many ARE off their ass and don’t even know what they’re doing anymore. Everything has become routine and they find themselves caught up in labels, how they look to others, how they can fit in, their social status, their money status, the latest gossip, blah blah blah…like zombies. Conditioned by the world around them… asleep, forgetting who they really are. I often have moments of clarity though, where I can feel my true self…and I feel like an outsider in this world. Watching the ways of society, observing human nature, seeing all the injustice and disconnection – I often feel alien.
So I guess that’s a big part of why I love Avatar so much…as Jake said in the movie “Everything is backwards now, like out there is the true world, and in here is the dream.” Watching Avatar feels like a return to home, in a sense. For 2 1/2 hours I feel like I’m in another place…where there’s so much compassion, beauty, love, understanding, magic… a place that resonates with my soul. The way our planet should be.
After sufficiently squealing while jumping up and down like a little girl, I present to you now the beginnings of a very awesome collection…
A Michael Jackson record player, circa 1984! How cool is this?! Hella, that’s how. And I am hella in LOVE with this thing. I was so stoked to find it while randomly browsing plain ole record players. I have always been gaga over vinyl records. I don’t know why really…but I just love them to death. They are classic vintage awesomeness. Yet, I’ve never really owned any. I guess that while I loved them, there wasn’t anyone who really had vinyl records out that I wanted to collect. But then in steps Michael…who frikkin’ showed me that there was actually a person in this world capable of producing heaven on every album…in every song. So you take that with my love of records and voila – you get this spiffy lookin’ playa. *SQUEAL* And for it to be made in 1984 makes it extra special, since it was the year I was born. (and wasn’t Michael DAMN FINE that year?!) It even has that vintage smell. ^_^ Ohh I’m happy it found it’s way into my arms. <3 Now I just gotta get to gettin’ some records for it!
Oh, and aside from my player, that awesome shirt you see there is also new, styled after the shirt that Michael wore in ‘Beat It’ (for all you non-fans :P ) It’s lovely. I heart it.
2012 is a good movie. And you know what makes it good? Not the acting or the effects or the action…as most critics have deemed cheesy and over the top. No. What makes this movie good was the idea of a nation coming together through chaos. A nation, where suddenly all the petty things you used to talk about or do…all the grudges you held, all the useless things you used to treasure or the superficial things you used to worry about…suddenly disappear, because ultimately in the end – that stuff doesn’t matter. What matters is life…and love…. In the end we’re all the same and in the end that’s all we have and all we need; each other.
Welcome to my new blog! I finally took the time to download Wordpress and figure the sexy beast out. It only took oh…..6 hours. Piece of cake.
Anyway, I’ve transferred over all my blog posts from dear Blogger so ay’thang is still here…in case anyone is feeling sentimental. If not, well whatever…just bookmark this shiz ’cause there shall be more awesomeness to come.
Peace out~
He’s closer to us now more than he ever was.
Open up, and you can feel him.
He’s everywhere.
Find comfort in this.
When your tears are falling,
He will hear your spirit calling
He will come to you…
It’s now 5 hours since I saw “This Is It” and my mind is still reeling from it. What an amazing movie…and a great experience. It was SO nice seeing him again… and he was BRILLIANT, as expected of course. Watching the rehearsal clips only affirmed to me what I initially thought and that was that his concert was going to be the most KICKASS show this world has seen. Truly. The new Thriller performance…holy WOW!! Smooth Criminal…smooth as ever!…Ah-mazing video sequence! The Way You Make Me Feel… PERFECTION. Earth Song…oh God…EPIC. They Don’t Care About Us…straight up BADASSERY…with the video effects, sunset, moves…damn. Human Nature…loooverly vocals. That’s one thing I didn’t expect – was such AMAZING vocals from Michael. I mean, Michael is an AMAZING singer we all know that, but since these were just rehearsals…I knew he wouldn’t be giving his all…and he did still preserve his voice but… WOW. He was still in GREAT voice…just like he was in the Bad era. <3
I smiled ear to ear throughout the entire thing…excluding the beginning when the dancers were being interviewed. I teared up watching how much it meant to them to be dancing with Michael…it was truly a dream come true. I can’t imagine how heartbroken they felt when Michael passed. :’(
Back to the high points though…well, after that the whole movie was a high – I sat completely awestruck as I watched his every move…I payed close attention to all the details and mannerisms. He was so involved in every part of everything he did…sure that each piece was perfectly orchestrated to create a masterpiece of a performance. I could gush about this movie and every bit of his work until the end of time.
I took some video of some clips during the movie…not intended to “bootleg”, I really just wanted to document my experience and remember it forever, so I got a few clips. Here’s some for your viewing pleasure: (beware these are SPOILERS if anyone hasn’t seen the movie yet!)
One of my favorite parts in the movie, which was more about his royal HOTNESS than his talent ;) was during “I Just Can’t Stop Loving You”. O – M – G. How close and sensual he was dancing with that girl…*GASP*…I about fainted. There was even a moment when he looked like he was about to grab her breast but then had to stop himself. LOL. oh that Michael…such a sexy beast. See for yourself! (I missed recording most of the SEXY clips from this bit…but watch 0:21 for the almost booby grab)
…And the high pitched “heeyy yeeeeahs” in that clip…holy SWOON. Beautiful.
I saw the movie with my Dad and my 4 year old daughter who LOVES Michael. Us and 3 other people were the only ones in the theater today…it was kinda nice…having it that empty. Felt more “personal” that way. But yet, I still wish I was in a bigger city where the theaters would be packed full of cheering and clapping fans! Ah well, it was a great experience nonetheless. :)
Michael, I know you wouldn’t have wanted everyone to see this movie…you being the perfectionist you are. But it has done nothing but fuel more love and appreciation for you and all you did and gave the world with your talents, love and generosity. I miss you so much, and I love you with all my heart. This ISN’T it…you will always be remembered and the spirit of your love and your work has forever impacted us and will continue to inspire others for generations to come.
LOVE YOU MORE!!!
~Amy
Here’s some pics from our day…and my little girl sportin’ her badass MJ outfit I made special for her.
